Friday, July 8, 2011
The Comfort Zone
Fortunately, I outgrew that stage. By then, I was an awkward teenager who thought I was stupid, ugly, fat, dumb, and boring. (Isn't that quite normal for teenage girls though?) I thought all my friends were better, prettier, and more popular than I was. I remember something so clearly from when I was about 13. A large group of us spent the day at an amusement park. One of the adults brought along her younger brother, who was adored by us all. He was older, tall, cute, and friendly. I was so nervous around him that I could barely speak. Later, his sister mentioned to my mom that he thought I was the prettiest but my cousin was the nicest. It was like someone jabbed a stake in my heart. It was then that I made up my mind that I had to develop a personality if I wanted to have any kind of life.
Last weekend, I hit a milestone. I sang my first solo in church. Now, I know I'm not a good singer. I am a good alto and can carry a part without being thrown off by the others in the group. But I don't have a pleasant sounding voice. At the insistence of the group leader, I finally relented and agreed to sing a 12-word solo. My hands were shaking to the point that I could barely hold my microphone. When I began singing, I wasn't sure if my voice was actually coming out. Then I finally heard it through the monitors. I had to close my eyes because I struggled looking at the 500+ people in front of me. When it was over, my belly did a flop and I continued with the song. I was still anxious for the song to be over and nervous that the leader would signal for me to sing that verse again. But I survived. I am still standing here today and I am glad that I pushed myself to do it.
The fifty compliments I received after the service were almost embarrassing. Many of those people know my background and understand how hard that was for me to do. But most of them wouldn't have handed out a compliment that wasn't deserved.
I think that everyone has to do that at some point in their life if they want to achieve true potential. If we all sit idly by and remain inside our comfort zone, we will never have pride, achievement, or success. So today, find a way to step out of your comfort zone and do something that's good for you!
What have you done recently that required you to leave your comfort zone?